Guest Post: “Nice to Meet You, I’m Anxious” (Written By: Ryan Adams)


Hello Everyone! This is the first ever guest post on my blog.  It was written by Ryan Adams, a 22 year-old college student from Boston. I am sure you will enjoy his work!


“Nice to Meet You, I’m Anxious” – Written By: Ryan Adams

Anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows, but only empties today of its strength.” – Charles Spurgeon

Anxiety… unfortunately… runs my life.

Whether it is ordering food at Dairy Queen, or worrying about my impending college graduation; no interaction comes without anxiety, and no thought comes without a certain level of worry. This fact, while debilitating at times, has now become a source of strength and guidance. (Not that breaking a sweat over standing in line to order chicken tenders is especially fun.)

Let me start at the beginning of this story, which is hard to pin down. But, I think starting at the end of the worst year of my young life sounds about right. Freshman year of college was a train wreck. I missed home but I really hated that I couldn’t be on my own without missing home so much. I loved school but for every reason except the school aspect. I was too concerned with making friends and partying. Wrongly, I thought that’s what life was all about. Then I almost got kicked out of school, and my home life was full of guilt and anger. Sophomore year was a little better, but I wasn’t happy. That’s where the story turns.

Two years later, with plenty of ups and downs in between, I feel excited about the litany of decisions I have to make. The change has been all about perspective, and it has a lot to do with the quote I opened with. Charles Spurgeon was a pastor in 19th century Britain (so I am pretty sure we do not have much in common.) But, human emotions span throughout time, and I felt like Spurgeon was talking directly to me.

I have broken my anxiety into two types: The “R-E-L-A-X” type and the “A-game” type.

The “R-E-L-A-X” type is the silly one. It’s the every day interactions that I over think, which leads to avoidance. And, in the end, I wind up only hurting myself. So,  now,  I take a deep breath and let it all go!

“A-game” is what I think about. The anxiety I get thinking of whether I want to chase my dream of working for the NFL, or my dream of travelling while still working, or to just go off the map and go to Europe for a year. The anxiety I get before a date or before a big test. It’s the anxiety that says, “This is important and you don’t know what the hell you are doing.”

I’ve come to realize that it’s okay; I don’t have to know exactly what I am doing. A movie line comes to mind that I cannot place right now but to paraphrase…

“I think about it real hard, consider every detail possible and still do not know the answer. Then I just stop, let it go and POP! There’s my answer, there’s my solution, my plan of attack. Or maybe no answer comes and I ride by the seat of my pants.”

So now anxiety does not run my life into the ground, but rather alerts me to what I should take seriously and what I should let go. It reminds me that I don’t always have the answers, but that I should probably just go for it anyway. It’s my Anxiety-Game, the A-Game.

I still have no clue what I am doing post-graduation, but at least I am super excited to figure it out and learn a whole bunch in the process.


About the Author: Ryan is a 22 year-old senior at Bentley University in Waltham, Massachusetts (10 miles from Boston). He will be graduating in the spring of 2015, with a degree in managerial economics. He has a passion for sports, especially the NFL, and loves movies and music. His love of writing is life-long and he hopes to do more of it in the future.

4 replies »

  1. I believe that we have all experienced anxiety at some point in our everyday lives. You are at a crossroads in your life and with graduation looming in the near future so many decisions are to be made. While some of the decisions will come easily, others may be more difficult to approach. You are absolutely correct in realizing that it certainly is OKAY to really not understand what the future holds for you. But facing it with the awareness that you will do the best you can and start each day with the knowledge that it is just that, a new day! Find strength in your own special talents and undoubtedly it will all fall into place.

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  2. Thank you for sharing Ryan! Wishing you all the success in life.
    Yoga & meditation are also life altering practices. I found both during a dark time in my life.

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